Have you ever experienced that moment when you're checking out at the cashier's stand with your bags ready to go and the message comes back - Denied - Insufficient Funds?
Red face. Humiliation.
Do you know that we are all Insufficient Funds?
-without His grace, love, and mercy? Not just zero, but negative - in the red.
Do you ever feel unworthy? Less than? Empty? Cast aside?
Have you ever been told or treated like you are simply not good enough?
I had a dream. Another one.
In it, I was searching for someone to talk to about my son's youth group (they had spent all their time outside chasing chickens...so clearly I needed to discuss this with someone in charge (-:) and I walked into a room that had a few older people sitting in chairs, holding clipboards and discussing who would serve where and what the needs were. I thought I would speak with one of them, but instead I quickly scanned the room and noticed there were a lot of young children (about 5-6 years old) who were joyfully learning and working and playing. I sat next to one of them and asked her a question about what she was working on. She enthusiastically responded and as we continued our conversation I thought, "Oh, this is why I'm here. This is where the need is."
Then the Lord opened my eyes and as I looked around again, I realized each one of the kids had special needs. My heart swelled and tears filled my eyes as He flooded me with His love for these precious children...who had been ostracized and taunted and cast aside by others...but not by Him.
And I woke up and I knew...we are all special needs.
We are all special needs and insufficient funds. And I laugh and cry at the same time as I grasp this. Because no matter what anyone has ever said about you, He is wild about you! He loves you to the core of your being. He loves you with your special needs and your weakness and your lack.
In our weakness, His strength is perfected. When we understand we are insufficient, we invite His sufficiency and abundance into our lives. And we humbly give Him what He alone deserves, all the glory and honor and praise!
1 Corinthians 1
26 For consider your calling, brothers: not many of you were wise according to worldly standards,[c] not many were powerful, not many were of noble birth. 27 But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong; 28 God chose what is low and despised in the world, even things that are not, to bring to nothing things that are, 29 so that no human being[d] might boast in the presence of God. 30 And because of him[e] you are in Christ Jesus, who became to us wisdom from God, righteousness and sanctification and redemption, 31 so that, as it is written, “Let the one who boasts, boast in the Lord.”